Ghost of Life
Astonished, shocked, blown away. Is this reality? My mind tells me to reach out and feel a pulse. I extend my hand and the matter in front of me truly is there. This is not a dream and my being still does not know how to react to this actual reality, but I close my eyes and take a deep breath.
It was you who taught me to breathe. Through all our adversity did I find the discovery of a single breath. Calm myself and set me free- breathe breathe breathe. Forgive my impulsing acts I have to say as matter of facts. I cannot seem to wrap this reality. I have found myself trying to distinguish if it was all a dream. I know it to be reality but it seems too real to be so complete. I have never felt more alive. Through all my thoughts you have survived. And to hear you say what you have said makes the world whole again.
I get so worked up sometimes.
I get flustered and start to scramble. When I get this way I have to take a step back and realize what is in my path. What it is that I am allowing to ruffle me up. So I close my eyes. I take a deep breath and I dive. I dive into my conscious world and I, fully aware, look around. One by one I examine each piece. Every cause has an effect. It is all in how you allow it to affect you. And truth is this cause affects me the wrong way. I try. Oh, I try so hard. I just want to open eyes. Eyes that refuse to see any light. But I have tried. I have tried for years and still this cause is the only one my patience has no more. So do I walk away?Do I leave and pretend it is all okay. It is so hard when all else around me see what is to see, yet just this one. This one and the causes around its aura. Ooo I could gnarl at the thought. But breathe- See?! Worked up I become.
It is all alright. I’m not a fight. I’ll let your life be your life, just know I cannot be apart of it anymore. This is me, looking out for me when all my days I’ve been trying to persuade you to do the same. I can’t be a crutch to anything that only weakens my stand. I hope you see how I am only trying to do the better thing. I can’t fall and watch you continue to stay the same. You’ll learn one day- I just can’t continue to hold your hand as you cross one road every five years. You are bringing me down.
In the end it will all be the way it needs. Life will live on oh so wonderfully. Just breathe- everything is fine when you remember to breathe.
Read A Book
The world is beautiful because I see it as so. My life is wonderful because I live it out to be. I make my ideals real. My imagination is alive. Living in full force to create my world. My universe is me.
I’ve taken a moment to meditate on where I am. Where my life will go, and what I have done to even get this far have astonished me past amazement. So I began to wonder. Why couldn’t I see this all before? What held me back? Were my eyes always shut? Then I begin to realize something. Something that is key and I wish others would truly believe. I began to see how I think. That one sentence is so pack with boldness. It is erupting with answers that would leave you stunned.
It is ordinary to be consciously unaware. Everyone gets in a set rotation of what is “life”. They go through their days without a thought of how everything is working. It’s routine. But, what if you open doors. What if you decide you want to change your world? It’s extraordinary to do, but disciplined and focus is key. You are born pre-mapped. We all know this. Our DNA is a mixture of our parents, grandparents, and ancestors before their time. We are exposed to the ideals of others before we can even generate our own— this is what makes change so hard. Because we are unconsciously manufactured for the major aspects of living, we find that most of our behaviors are based on what we already know- our memories. So, given that sentence, if we behave off of what we know, we are what our memories posses. Our memories, our experiences, our way of life is all based on past happenings. Agreed? Because this is so, what if we change our memories, that’s easy? We change our memories by having new experiences, meeting new people, making new relationships. But what happens to our past? It’s still alive because we can still pull it back into reality, but our past is what made us want to change our future. So why do we still pull up the past? -Because we are consciously unaware of what we are doing. Our body acts off of routine because we’ve allowed it to. We don’t tell our lungs to expand and give us life, they are trained to do so and without effort from our conscious mind they function. What am I saying? Just as we make the unconscious decision to breathe, blink, pump blood- we unconsciously fall back into what is known. We are as fact- consciously unaware. But to posses true change, we must in fact change. So, how did I change? How does anyone?
Begin to see how you think. Be consciously aware.
If you take the time, look at your life. You’ve had hard days right? But you are alive now. You made it through those tough times. You have worried enough in your life. What did worry ever solve? We know that the fact that we decided to worry changed nothing on the outcome of what caused our worry. SO- take the lesson of the past, see its verdict- now change. You just proved to your own being that worry is only making you feel uncomfortable even more. One issue down, tons more to conquer.
You have to be at one with yourself. You have to love yourself. You have to want. You have to be ready to take on habits that your body does not recognize and make them known. If you want to be happy, you will be happy. If you want to be sad, you will be sad. You know that happiness feels good so take note of what makes you happy. Find your zest by first finding your own self by looking not in the mirror but inside. Listen to what you have to say and say it out loud. The first step to ever accomplish anything is to know what it is that you want to accomplish. You’re beautiful because you are you. You’ll see that in the end, when you are all grown up, that beauty is who you are.
The world is beautiful because I see it as so. My life is wonderful because I live it out to be. I make my ideals real. My imagination is alive. Living in full force to create my world. My universe is me and I will continue to always fight to conquer everything that it can possibly be.
the human aura
Give Me One Reason To Leave You
I’ve got the whole world in my hands. I am sitting on the throne of “anything can be mine” So, I take my stand. I leave my hand. For anyone one to grab, I will lead you with my simple gift of giving. This isn’t mine to brag, not mine to keep hidden away, no- no I share with the world my slice of joy. I share with you the chance to adore. I want to see you feel that happiness. I want to see you live out that love. I want to be everything for you in a single breaths release. It is the season of change, and I’ve got a lot to make new for you. I’ve come a long way, I’ve traveled through these days, and with a single reminder I am given a boost to keep on striving. So make that change with me. Take that stand and be free. I know you haven’t forgotten my name. I have hope in you, come find me and let’s make this one a two. I’d live with you by my side, we both know no one reasons matter when it comes to our own ambition. Take on the world, let us make them jealous. This is the reason for living- to be free and completely forgiven.
My favorite movie ever. My views. My life. Be your own- even if that means disobey
“It means that I, like God, do not play with dice and I don’t believe in coincidences.”
“My life is only a canvas. Everyday I throw paint on it hoping to create something beautiful.”me & my view.