Forgive & Forget
I woke up to a fresh breath in my lungs. The day felt different, lighter than before. There was a spring in my step as the sun shined beautifully down upon me. I would conquer this day and I knew it.
As the day grew on, it seemed to me that I was completely free. I felt no worries hovering; I felt like me. I smiled at everything, because it was so beautiful to me. The day was glorious, so warm, so fresh. It was spring at its best.
I saw your face once as my day prolonged. My heart sank in my chest and I knew I had to move on. But with my best beside me, he told me not to fret. My pain was gone after a single breath.
As a sunflower was given, my day became even brighter. With all this love around me, how did I feel so captured? I knew I had fallen the months before. I saw the tragedy waiting at my front door. My stubborn will to make things perfect only masked the reality of what was true from the start. Now that I cannot forget I will never have that pit. That pit of wonder if you were it. I know now better than all the years before that you, silly boy, were nothing more than a toy.
I kicked my feelings as the futbol sailed away. That energy was hidden, but I knew I had to get it out and play. So as we played the day away I could only laugh and smile. I was back to were I was going, and I knew this time it would be easier than ever before. Today I shined, and it felt so wonderful to me.
I say the past is the past and I will not go back.
I forgave you the moment I walked away. I forgave you as I drove. I forgave you after all the text. I forgave you as you slept. I do not hold in anger. I do not hold a grudge. What happened, happened and we can never take that back. Just know now I hope you never touch another soul. You have all the potential to be perfect gold.
Live your life to the fullest, and I wish you all the best. Never let your ruins overtake your soul inside. I know you are not mine, but you have built a life I cannot deny. I thank you so greatly for meeting me those five years ago. I would never change a thing, this was the only way for me to grow. I hope you understand the lesson that lies behind our fall. I hope you see how to treat the beauty you’ll defeat.
When it becomes hard and you see me in your dreams. Think of reality and what it now means. I am not there; and I will never be, not like before and not like our faith of fate had in store. I do not know if my words even truly matter. You’ve proven yourself to be everything I never could see. But I know me, and who I want to be. I will always look back and be grateful for your place in my hands. You shaped my world and I love it more than I know. You just are not worthy to share this precious gold.
You must stick up for yourself love, and never mind what anyone thinks. Be you and be brave. Do not hold in all your rage. I thank you for allowing me to see the light in all the rest of my days.